My Companion

pain is my constant companion,
like my shadow it may not be easy to see all the time,
but if you look closely you will see it in my eyes.

some days it is a pang,
some it is agony.
this pest never leaves completely,
it may rise and fall
but it will never cease.

pain is like no other cohort,
it shows no mercy and offers no reason.
only the sharp, unrelenting reminder -
no matter where i go in life
my companion will always follow.

Morning

I have never been a "morning person", but since my surgeries I am even less of one. Each morning I wake up to feel pain before my eyes even open, usually there is some level of nausea, and all of my joints ache. I really dislike morning.
Since my son started AM kindergarten my mornings have changed. I try to be cheerful, patient, and of course on time - so far he has not been late to school, and has been an extraordinary student. However, this does not change the fact that I feel like shit. There are days I lay in bed wondering how I am going to get up and function through it all. That is when I remind myself how blessed I am to have an amazing child, loving husband and incredible family support. I get to be a part of my son's life everyday. . . I am the one lucky enough to guide him through life. So, I might move a little slower than most (especially in the AM), but I try to enjoy life to the fullest each and every day.